Having gone through and looked at a lot of these blogs, I think I'm spending too much time whining - or really, just venting off enough steam that I can get back to work and in a sense 'download' the relentlessly gnawing crap in my brain onto some other place so that it will go away and I can get back to reading (and watching Scrubs). (And reading more.)
First of all, things are as great as they can be with the fiance - we'd been getting endlessly teased by people who have gone through the exam process about how rough this is going to be on our relationship and all that, and we've had a couple moments that haven't been great (usually fueled by me in breakdown mode), but we're really strong and happy and talk things out, and with as stressful as things already are, that's really comforting. It's really starting to be like living with family again, even while my family is 1200 miles away...
Secondly, I've gotten so frustrated by the media's inane 24+ hour coverage of the Anna Nicole Smith thing that my desire to have the television on for anything other than weather forecasts, Scrubs reruns, Keith Olbermann and the Daily Show/Colbert has dropped to below zero. Which is helping me get a lot more reading done. Tony and I have taken to playing gin during reading breaks.
Third, my Monday meeting with David went really well. So I'm feeling pretty good about that and will begin reading stuff for the next meeting (after GEMCS) really soon. Yay for Marlowe and Jonson...
Fourth, I'll be in Chicago in two weeks, get to see one of my absolute closest friends ever on my birthday while there, and will have a good chance to both a) go to some sessions and keep reviewing for exams and b) get to Lush and get some more bathing goodies to help me read.
Fifth (though really first), I have an amazing support system of some lifelong friends and the greatest family I could ever ask for, who get me somehow through everything, listen to the stress, humor me, and give me chocolate and pajamas when I'm down (thanks Mom!!!)... I'll get through exams somehow, pass them, and get to spend the summer finally planning my wedding in earnest. Yay!
Sixth, insofar as these online platforms for mental spewing can occasionally backfire or blow up in one's face, I've gotten to reconnect with some old friends and found them to be as intelligent, thoughtful, blunt and funny as I remembered (hi! especially to Ashlee), so this is, all in all, worth it.
Now, having attempted to do some attitude re-adjustment, I'm going to go clean up/get ready for the 'celebrate Nate getting legitimate, gainful employment' that makes all this torture seem worth it party, blog about the medieval nationalism reading I did yesterday, and see what else I can get to before getting to the Ho around 5ish.
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And how was the Party at the Ho? I actually thought about you guys last night (during the party while I was still at work arguing with the boss about something stupid - the typical pub fight we have that I usually enjoy, but I was tired and have a cold, so ICK!!!!). Anyway, I mentally toasted with a lovely little chocolate cyber stout!
And I love being part of your support system - it's SO much fun!!!
Loveya!!!
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